Doubting in my own insecurity and questioning my own choices and friendships and decisions and wondering if I really am capable of moving out in an year to step out into the unknown. Trying to figure out things on my own and feeling so incredibly overwhelmed and small in the light of the life-changing turns ahead.
I'm guilty of worrying.
I'm guilty of not trusting that my life is planned out in detail for God's glory and my good by my Heavenly Father.
I'm guilty of moving and fighting and searching, rather than simply being still and knowing that He is God and accepting that all things are held within the palm of His hand.
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“Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!”{Psalm 46:10, ESV}
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Sometimes in the light of our everyday lives, we forget who God is. We forget to be still and meditate on His attributes and reflect upon His characteristics. We forget to know and be in awe of the majesty and glory of our Creator.
In the Systematic Theology class I'm attending at church, we've recently gone over God's omni- attributes, His power and all sufficient knowledge and ability to be in all places at all times. And these thoughts of God, contemplating theology proper, have brought me comfort and peace, knowing that my life is treasured and mapped out by my Heavenly Father.
His omnipresence, God's ability to be completely everywhere at one point in time. To know that my Heavenly Father, the Creator and Sustainer of the universe, is always with us, and that we can cry out to Him for wisdom and strength and joy, should bring peace. Even though life may be chaotic and decisions may be difficult, He is Emmanuel, God with us, anytime, anywhere, in the midst of the storm and the confusion and the hardships or when we realize how infinitely blessed we are and life seems to be going well. God is always near. And that thought blows my mind.
His omnipotence, God's ability to do anything and everything consistent with His own nature. God promises to work all things for the good of those who love Him, and we know through His strength, He will follow through. Even though things may seem humanly impossible or complicated, God is all-powerful and we can ask great things of the Almighty God. Rather than worrying or taking things into our own hands, we can trust Him to accomplish everything in accordance to His will.
His omniscience, God's ability to know everything. He understands our weaknesses, our needs, and our desires. He understands what we're struggling through, the little things that try our patience, the tough life decisions we have to make, the complex friendships and relationships in our lives. He knows. And we don't need to worry, for the Creator of the universe who knows all things, including what is best for us at each moment in time, will work all things together for our benefit and His glory, through His perfect power and knowledge and presence.
Worry is a sin.
Worry is doubting the ability of our Creator to know and to act.
Worry is challenging the strength of the Lord to act upon what is best for us, questioning the sovereignty of the Lord and His plan for our lives.
Worry exists in the absence of a proper fear of the Lord.
But when we develop a fear and reverence for the Lord, when we contemplate His attributes and find joy and peace in His greatness, when we deliver our cares over to an omnipotent, omnipresent, omniscient God, our worries melt away. We have a God greater than our fears and more powerful than our insecurities who loves us and pursues His glory and our good. We can live each day, trusting Him and His attributes, finding comfort that our lives are in nail-pierced hands.
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"Cast your burden on the LORD, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved."{Psalm 55:22, ESV}
